One week into 2018. I like to think through some resolutions and then set them throughout January. I like to see what I really need, what I'm feeling, and let the sense of a year anew set in.
2017 seemed to put a lot of people through the ringer. My life definitely got turned upside down, but I am refreshed with the changes. I've learned so much, about life and myself. I know I've become stronger and more sure of myself. I've learned that there are people in my life that love me for me, no matter if I'm my usual annoyingly optimistic self or if I'm uncharacteristically melancholy. Not to sound more zen then I truly am, but I've learned to embrace the melancholy. Embrace the sadness and anger and frustration that come in life and let it reinforce and brighten all the good.
One of my New Years Resolutions from 2017 that I am carrying over to this year is TO PET MORE DOGS. Yes, I mean this literally. But I also mean it as a metaphor for the sentiment above. Last year, I finally took the time to re-evaluate what I was doing. I realized that there were many things that truly make me happy that I wasn't making time for in order to be someone I wasn't for other people. I have found so much personal growth in focusing on this sentiment. Yes, "Pet More Dogs" sounds cheesy and silly, but that is also something I've realized about myself. I AM CHEESY AND SILLY.
A second resolution for 2018 is to be truly open to new people and continue to surround myself with people that "fill my cup." This goes hand in hand with my goal to continue to step away from "energy vampires." The best way I can explain is that I imagine my life and all the people (and things!) in it as standing in a dark room. I kept pouring my light into people and things that just kept taking the light from the room and from me. When I stepped back from these people and things, I was able to see the people that were glowing brightly - bringing light and warmth to my dark room. When I started pouring more of my own light into these people and things, the entire room got brighter. I have a very hard time with this, as I tend to over-try with people and things solely because I don't want to give up. I think this is a tendency of a lot of women.
My third resolution is in regards to my health. Of course, I would like to lose a bit more weight - but this is a bigger goal. I want to focus on eating cleaner and more plant based. I read the Blood Type Diet at the beginning of 2017 and it helped me not only lose 8ish pounds, it made my stomach feel a ton better. I am blood type A+, which the diet recommends eats no red meat (sad) but eat lots of veggies and even some pastas! I also want to add more cardio, as I know that at 33 now is the time to form the habits that will define the rest of my life!
Finally, I came to a realization while in Connecticut for New Years with my lovely college friends and then this past weekend in California with my sister: I crave spending more time with the people I love. I am so lucky that there are a ton of people within a 10 mile radius (and lets face it, many of you that I love are within a 2 mile radius!) to where I live. But, there are people that buoy my spirit that I rarely get to see. My sister, for one. It is astounding to me how much our relationship has grown over the last year. We are so different, yet so similar and I want to continue to nurture and strengthen our sister bond. She's become so much more than just my younger sister, she's become a close confidant and my fiercest protector. She has become my best friend.
Likewise, I have friends from college that I do not get to see enough that make my heart so happy. 2018 was the best New Years I have had since spending the turn of the millennium in Hawaii at an NSYNC concert (don't judge, you know your fifteen year old self is jealous). One Hoya in particular (who's wedding I was there to celebrate!) has been an unwavering BFF and support since we met in 2003. Liz is easily the smartest person I know in real life, and also has the biggest heart. Even if she's somewhere in the Middle East researching, she always has time for me. I got to visit her and her then-fiance in Boston in October, see her in November in the Catskills for her bachelorette, and then in December for her wedding weekend and New Years. I'm already plotting how to get to see her next.
Yes, I am incredibly lucky to have a strong friend group here in Louisville. But, I need to make the time to visit the people that aren't here and have a huge presence in my life. Thus, my final resolution is to say yes to more that is new and different and to travel to see the people I love. This means more trips to the East and West Coast, more planning of trips with friends that have the travel bug like I do (even if I can't get them to go somewhere warm..), and more trips to Orlando.
I look forward to sharing this continued journey of figuring out life. I welcome any insight, criticism, advice, and encouragement. I am sure I will have some more resolutions in a week or two. :)